It has been
a month ever since I have taken a break off of dance, and I love it and miss it
all at the same time.
I got an
unexpected call the other day; my tap teacher wants me to teach for my jazz
teacher because she is pregnant and is due in May and she is leaving in a week
or so. When he told me this I was so shocked that I had to tell him that I would
have to call him back. I talked to my mom about this and she didn’t really think
it would be a great idea because she said that she has noticed a change in me,
for example I am less tired, I get all of my work done, I seem very happy and
that I have more time on my hands. So I had no clue what I was going to say to
my teacher about this
I really wanted to do it, but, I know that I’m
going to go back to the same routine as before which is go to class, then go to
dance, then do my homework, and then go to sleep. I thought about this for a
couple of days and I called him back and I asked him when he needed an answer
and he said by tomorrow, so I am really torn on what to do.
This is a
lot of pressure on me because I don’t want to let them down, and because I am
really the only person they have left to ask. I wouldn’t mind doing it if it
was for a couple of days but the days I would teach would be Tuesday-Friday,
and that would be a lot of time I am giving up.
I keep on
having mixed feelings about this, because I really want to teach but I don’t want
to lose my freedom again, and not only am I dancing but I am teaching so that
is a really big step for me if do it. If I do it I feel like I am going to be
really stressed out because when my teacher is gone there are still three competitions
left and then recital! So that is really stressful and the pressure is all on
me if I say that I can’t teach.
I mean I will
do anything for my dance studio because I have been there for 15 years, but
this is big and hard decision for me and I really don’t know what I am going to
do.
It just
stinks because I have been doing so well with my time management and then all
of sudden this comes up, and I know if I say yes to teaching all of my hard
work and my time management is going to down grade a lot. This is just a really
hard decision, any ideas or suggestions?
Wow. This is a TOUGH one. In the end, you have to decide what is in your best interests: helping out the studio in the short term, or laying the groundwork for a new scholastic/personal lifestyle.
ReplyDeleteI don't think any of us can answer this for you: you'll have to make the tough decision. But one thing is for sure: you have to be loyal to yourself first. Then you can do right by others!
this is such a tough decision to make. I understand you miss dance terribly but would going back be the best deicison for you and your work ethics now.
ReplyDeleteI have noticed a change in you like your mom. You actaully get your work done and you seem much more prepared for classes.
Maybe there is a way you can teach a dance class over summer when you are not attending classes. That way you can still be involved but not have to worry about grades and school on top of dance.