Monday, March 12, 2012

Taking it one day at a time


During my spring break I decided to go to my dance studio’s dance competition at Forest Park High School. I was already a little nervous about going because I didn’t want my dance teachers to say anything negative to me, and I didn’t want to get depressed watching all of the dances that I use to be in now that I am not there at the dance studio anymore.

While the dance completion was going on one of my favorite dances that I was supposed to be the “star” in was about to go on! So after the dance was over I started balling my eyes out, I was so upset that I wasn’t competing with any of my close friends anymore and that I wasn’t in my favorite dance.  My dance teacher saw me crying and pulled me aside and said “I know you are upset, but you have to realize that you were stressing yourself out with all of this dancing, there is always next year.” I thought to myself she is right, I wanted to take a break dancing and focus and when I can manage my time and be less stressed can start dancing again. I just need to take it step by step.

After my breakdown at the competition I was thinking about all of the symptoms that were listed from the Mayo Clinic and I realized that crying and feeling sad is a sign of depression. I usually don’t cry a lot but lately I have been very in my feelings and I think I am a little depressed. So I am going to try to work on that and to just try to get dancing off my mind at the moment.

Watching my dance studio compete was a really big step for me, and I am proud of myself for going, but it really made me realize that I do miss dancing. Who knows, maybe I might take a couple of classes during the summer since I won’t have any classes.

Now that I am not dancing at the moment I decided to sign up for the gym so I am still active. I love going to the gym, but I am just not as motivated as I was when I went to dance.  But going to the gym is a really good way to relieve all of my stress and it helps me clear my mind.

Overall I really do think my time management has gotten a lot better, I am much focused on my school work and looking forward to perusing my career.


Staff, Mayo Clinic. "Definition." Mayo Clinic. Mayo Foundation for Medical Education and Research, 10 Feb. 2012. Web. 27 Feb. 2012. <http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/depression/DS00175/DSECTION=symptoms>.

2 comments:

  1. I agree that going to see your friends dance was a huge step, especially this early in the "not dancing" process. And you got through it!

    You know what would be interesting? A blog post that lists what you accomplished in any given week (a week is a good set of time) now that you're not dancing. What did you get accomplished regarding school, sleep/rest, time with friends, planning career, etc.?

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  2. You are apart of my community have you found others in our community to respond to and add as friends. Because we don't have much time for anything and we are use to it to make a change or alter our schdules ca cause depression and give us time to think about things we never really realized was important to us.

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