Making the right decision

This weekend was my first competition since May 2011; I competed in 12 dances and had a solo. I was so nervous and so stressed out! The most stressful part about this weekend was that the competition was on Friday, Saturday, and Sunday, so I had no time for anything besides dancing.  Waking up at 5:30am and staying at the competition until 10pm was a pain, I had no time to relax or anything because all of my dances were back to back.  During the awards, my studio did really great and I won first place for my tap solo. But, I kept on thinking to myself “do I really want to keep on doing this?”, “do I really want to keep stressing myself out, and not having any time for anything else but dance?.” I thought about this all of Sunday night, and I realized that dancing is not what I want to do as a profession. I need to focus more on college so I can get into a 4 year college and work on getting my degree as being an elementary teacher.

Sunday night I talked to my mom and told her how I felt, and she told me that I should cut down on dance classes since I am already am taking a lot, I am struggling with my time management, and that I really need to focus on college and getting my degree.  I was speechless when she told me that, because I knew that was she was right, but I didn’t want to cut down on dance classes.  Sometimes I think I can do everything at once and on my own, but this past weekend made me realize that I really can’t everything because it stresses me out and that I don’t have enough time to do all of the things I want to do.

Cutting down my classes was really hard for me because, I felt like I was letting my parents, my dancing teachers, and my whole dance studio down. But in the end I need to realize that this is what’s best for me so I mange my time, not be so stressed and focus on college. Maybe if I get everything back on schedule I can start adding more classes, but as of now I am only taking 6 classes instead of 12.  I don’t think I would have realized or have changed most of my problems if it wasn’t for writing blogs and getting feedback from my classmates. But I know I am making the right decision, hopefully I will have more time on my hands, and will not be so stressed.