These past
few weeks taking a break from dance has been pretty good. But I realize that I
am not as interested in dancing as I use to be, I think the reason is that I have
had so much more time, and I have been able to accomplish a lot more things,
and I am focused on my work. So I think I
am going to go into my studio and tell them that I need to take a break from
dance for the rest of the year. I am scared to tell them because I know they aren’t
going to take it well, but I know I am making the right decision.
I talked to
my mom last night and I told her how I felt, surprisingly she took it better
than I thought. She told me that if this is what I want to do than I should go
for it and that she will support me 100%. I know deep down I know she is hurt
that I am taking the rest of the year off, and I feel like I am letting her
down but I know that this isn’t what I want to do for a career and I have to
stop dancing at some point.
Dance is not
something I want to pursue as a career; I just do it because I enjoy it a lot.
This is why I should stop dancing now and focus on my actual career which is
being a teacher. I think this the perfect time to stop dancing because I’m in
college and I really want to do well so I can get into a 4 year college and
pursue my dream as a teacher. Also, I need to learn how to cut back on things,
and learn how to manage my time, and I think after quitting dance I think
managing my time won’t be that much of a problem as it was before.
The only
thing that I am worried about is that I don’t want to regret giving up dance, I
mean I have been dancing since I was three so I don’t know how I am going to
feel a month from now. So I am just very nervous that I am going to regret quitting
dance.
College can sometimes be overwhelming, and I think you are making a smart decision to invest in your future and give yourself more time to study.
ReplyDeleteMaybe if you try not to think of it as 'quitting dance' but instead as postponing it until your grades are secure you'd feel a little bit better about making the decision. Could you do it on more of a part time basis, maybe just not compete?
Also, just promise yourself that you WILL go back to it. I said the same thing to myself when I quit riding and sold my horse when I got married, but I never pushed hard enough to get back into it. Maybe someday, but now is not the time.
Best wishes!
Aww Mikayla, I didn't know you wanted to teach! That's really cool. I think you'll be super good at it. But in order to really focus on your goals, I think this is a good decision. And like Marie said, you could always come back to it one day when you've got yourself together in the future. Good luck!!
ReplyDeleteRemember: giving it up "for now" is not "forever." You can go back at any time. Hang in there, and definitely do a bit of research on withdrawal symptoms...you'll want to be prepared.
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